I'm

bored

confuse

lifeless

depress

losing confidence

losing direction

Feelings

Feelings

Has come and gone, come and gone

I do not know

Do not understand

What is this feeling that keep bother me

Is it because of the loneliness ?

I do not know

For the time being

Let's put this a side

Continue with life

Let just let it flow itself

Retarded

UCSI foreign student especially those black skin...
are really dman fucking retarded...
If you want to come to class just to sign your stupid attendance...
and just get the fuck out of here without studying or pay attention to the lecturer...
What's the fucking point for you being here ?
Do you think you can pass your subject without knowing what you are studying and pass your examination by just signing attendance and leave ?
Fucking degenerate...
And I don't underfuckingstand how one people can sign an attendance need to take more than 5minutes...
Are you blind that you can't see your own fucking name or are you just being a retarded or an asshole ?

Class

ma de !
this is like the 4th time i came to class early and class cancel...
knn today worst... class change from thursday to friday...
fuck lar... Friday is my free day become got class
thinking about dropping it anot...
Sucks !

Life

I seriously don't get it why people can really go to cybercafe for almost everyday playing the same game for almost few years.
Yeah, you guys know what that shit is okie.
Doesn't that shit bore you ?
Same shit, same thing, same game plan.
There is so much more meaningful thing to be done in life and there can be so no life going to cybercafe playing the same thing over and over again.
They knew that there isn't going to be any electricity during the day.
They still make a gamble to go to the cybercafe to see if it can be play.
I was like Oh my god, there is a time for you to rest and do other thing.
Take a fucking break man.
Damn fucking no life.
The most funniest thing I ever heard is someone said "Wah you paying rm600 for your phone bill... u might as well use that rm600 to use and takei better..."
LoL people got a life please...
Get a Life and GTFO

3rd September 2009

Friday night, nothing much to do
teman a friend in need of company
we a group of 6, Me, Fui, Hai Tang, Gan, Chia and Nick went to Seremban's Tarot Cafe for yumcha and Nick had a performance singing there.
Tag along~
got off from cheras around 7.45pm and reach seremban at 8.30

Ta-daa reached...

Tarot Cafe... the enviroment really not bad...

The tarot card on the wall @@

Gan and Nick

Fui and Hai Tang

My "Death God" drink o_o

The performance

________________________________________

Stay strong my friend =)
cheers~

Apologize

I'm sorry
for these few days
some might think that I'm an asshole during these few days
Really really sorry
something has been bothering me this few days
Forgive me please ~

_________________________________________

fucking hate exam season
not because of the exam is tough for me
it's because is giving a hard time to some people
please faster pass this exam time

Cheer le =)

Everyday I keep on waiting for a chance to give away the love i save to you
Hard as I try I'm getting closer but I can't get through

for some reason very emo moody
got the feeling of not wanting to go home
want to keep myself busy not thinking anything
went to subang and had a chat with long time no contact friend
problems~
think too much ?

What I did ?
fly there and back
long time don't have this feel
Emo that time at night
find a nice place to fly car~
excited > emo

-end-

It hurts sometimes~

The white windmill
Turning quietly
The real feeling
Distant like a dreamland
The sweet seawater
The complicated tears
I look at you smiling in a silly way
Holding my hand
I hope this dream does not have an end
It's good that we walked to here
Because I don't want to finish walking this happiness too fast
It's a shame there isn't a blessing
When I'm loving you I'm not lonely
I won't let you cry again

I carry you walking till the end
Can we not go back?
You hug me tightly
Saying you don't need a promise
You say that if I'm by myself I'll be freer
I don't understand what you're saying
I won't let go anyway
I carry you walking till the end
Can we not think too much?
Can we hold hands?
Get to the end a bit later
You say we shouldn't see each other again only for a moment
Thank you for letting me hear it
Because I'm waiting here forever

The spring flower of the story
Floats from that year when it was born
Swinging on a swing in childhood
Following memories always swaying till now

Playing the prelude, watching the sky, I remember the petal trying to flop

That day when I skipped class for you
That day when flowers fall
That classroom
How come I couldn't see
The disappeared rainy sky?
I really want to be drenched again
Never thought that I still keep the courage that I have lost
Really want to ask again
Will you wait or leave?

This day of the typhoon
I tried to hold onto your hand
But yet
Rain gradually
Heavy to the point that I cannot see you
How much longer
Before I can be at your side?
Waiting for that day when it clears up
Maybe I will be a bit better
In the past, in the past
There was someone who loved you for a long time
But yet
Wind gradually
Blows the distance really far apart
Not very easily
Once again be able to love a day more

你不是真正的快乐

人群中哭着 你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了

你静静忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了 于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后才后悔着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着

戒情人

你说你最近 爱上了一个
喜欢喝几杯的人
你不习惯他的冷
却离不开他忧郁眼神
我想你只是 重新爱上了
被一个人疼的温存
你总是说要戒情人
却有个贪杯的灵魂
喝一口能够让你醉几分
谁让你沈溺就让你伤神
哭一场是否真的可以擦亮眼睛
输给了寂寞的人对待自己最残忍
喝一口眼神换心碎几分
谁让你沈溺就让你伤神
醉一场是否真的可以痛个过瘾
希望你夜深人去酒入柔肠不会化泪痕

Uneasy

For some reason, I'm feeling uneasy, bored, emo, zzzz
Get me out of this !
I think I really need to sleep earlier !
No more 4/5/6am !

Tired.

Tired.

Been a human being till today.
I ask myself what I need to do is also done.
Even if i didn't do the best but at least I had given the best of me.
But what's the result ?
The god still make a fool about you.
Not those bad thing, horrible thing or things that hurt you, god also don't gives you.
Then what's the point of being a good guy?
You tell me what the god wants.
So being a human being is not about giving our best and done our part then is alright.
Right, other people can't make a fool about you but the god can.
What's the point being a good guy ?
Right now I'm really really tired of what I'm doing now, very tired.

arguement occured early in the morning.
got so pissed off that i punched and broke a mirror.
my hand started bleeding.
for a moment, i feel dizzy for some blood lost.
glass seems to get into my skin.
this is what it look after treated.

彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我　
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静　
所有的云都跑到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我　
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药　
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着　
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球　太阳还是会绕　
没有理由　我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单　
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱　
当作我最后才明白

有没有口罩一个给我　
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药　
也是我现在正服下的毒药
看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着　
你的声音这么近我却抱不到
没有地球　太阳还是会绕　
没有理由　我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单　
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开但能不能别没收我的爱　
当作我最后才明白

无赖

我间中饮醉酒很喜欢自由
常犯错爱说谎但总会内疚
遇过很多的损友学到贪新厌旧
亦欠过很多女人

怕结婚只会守三分钟诺言
曾话过要戒烟但讲了就算
梦与想丢低很远但对返工厌倦
自小不会打算

但是仍唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算坏我也不忍心偷偷作怪

没有跟的野种飘忽的命途
谁像你当我宝甚黱也做到
旧爱手中一疋布在这刻写句号
只想跟你终老

在地球唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算我也不忍心

还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
没大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我拼命捱
换转别个也忍心偏偏作怪

In my cold and shivering left hand
It's a small ring
For the two who are far apart
It's the treasure that bounds them together
In the letter that arrived in the winter
There was the ring and the last word
Goodbye,
When we meet again
I wonder if your dream will be fulfilled
Walking away from me I silently looking at your back
I want to tell you
Good luck